MIDNIGHT!/ Saturday, November 18, 2006
You take a star...and you lead it far away from heaven..and it'll be lost...like I'm lost without you... Somehow..right now i'm really wishing that you could be by my side but i know that if you do, it'll only make the pain worst. Emptiness of the soul is so much more excruciating than physical scars...the loneliness just eats into you piece by piece until whats left of you...is only an empty shell.Moving on just seems really distant at this point of time...the fear of being hurt again is what pulls me back from moving on. I know in life everyone must move on but still..I'm too afraid to move on. If I learn to trust and love someone else, will I end up being broken like I am now? I dont think back much of our memories now...but each time I think of moving on, its memories of you that haunts and hinders my journey. Its been too long that I was lost and like the stars, I too fear for my sanity and well being. Lost in my shrouded memories and darkness...hopefully one day someone will find me admist these chaos and aid me in my insecurities.But until then, today will be the day that your memory will be left behind because I know it is not impossible to move on so until the day when i am stronger, you shall be forgotten forevermore.
Signed off,Ras
I hate you .
10:41 AM <3
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